Saturday, January 26, 2008

Twins of life

The heart is numb
Mind rambles on
Eyes remain silent
Mouth speaks for long

Claustrophobic in a crowd
Swarmed all alone
Ears listen nothing
Heartbeats create mayhem

Not all alone
Yet seeking someone
Light does not enlighten
Darkness calmly enfolds

Nothing moves forward
Life rushes by
Mere spectator no more
Live it up, will I?

Perplexed Gemini speculates
Twin of emotions
Liberated Gemini knows
One choice to make

Monday, January 14, 2008

Aisa hi hota hai! (This is how it happens!)


How do you say bye to someone who has been part of your life for just three years but seems that you have known them forever? How do you bid farewell to someone who knows you better than you know yourself most of the times? How do you say adieu to a friend who has gracefully become family? How do you say Goodbye to someone who has taught you so much while pretending to learn? How do you part ways with someone who makes sure that you remember them every time you meet friends they helped you make?

Well I have no idea how you do it but I start by crying just thinking of all the good times. Then I cry thinking of all the predictable moments that I won’t be able to share with them in person. Then I start to laugh with tears still rolling down my cheeks thinking of all the MAD things that we did together and the things that I am pretty sure we will not do with anyone else on the planet. Then I blog about it so that this emotion becomes immortal and in time when the hurt of being away from your best friend heals you still can hold onto the memory of what seems the greatest loss at this point in time.

Well my friend is not dying (Thank God!). She is getting married to the luckiest man on this earth. I know that our friendship will sustain for life and the times we have spent doing the most bizarre of activities will be narrated to our grandchildren by us. Never before in life, proximity has meant more to me than now. There are friends and then there are FRIENDS. Gurneet is FAMILY; A part of the cosmic family that I hold very dear.

I am extremely happy for Gurneet. She deserves the best and I am pretty convinced that she is getting the best partner for life in Balwinder. But every second of everyday I cannot help but wish that he lived in Delhi itself so that Gurneet could remain a constant in my life. But I know now what Gurneet would say to this, “Pagal. Priyanka aise hi hota hai. Tujhe kuch nahi pata. Main jaoongi tabhi toh someone special will come in your life. See I love you so much. Sirf tere liye hi shaadi kar rahi hoon main.” (Priyanka, this is how it happens. You don’t know anything. Its only when I go that someone special will come into your life. See I love you so much. And I am marrying just for your sake.) How can I not love someone who can come up with such bizarre logics? :D

With tears rolling down my cheeks I pray for a happy married life for my best friend and wish that the vacuum that she has created in my life soon fills up. And as Gurneet says – Aisa hi hota hai!!!

Loads of love.